Prayer Request

So...I am asking you for some major prayer support. Why? Because I am potentially not going to raise enough money for my mission trip and IF that happens, I need strength to praise God despite my disappointment. Lots of non-believers I know are aware of my plans and I want to be able to tell them that even though I am not going, God is in control of my life and that even in hardship God is worthy of praise. I suspect that will be hard for me to do without lying. But...God is amazing and perfectly capable of making sure I get the funds in time. But...if God doesn't want me to go, I won't be, even if I really really want to go! I still need to raise 75% of the money in three weeks!!! That's doable right?